Allah is always looking...

Aku tak bangun sahur pon :( but why i am awake? hsetku memanggil-manggil..Cp wat m.call...dats why i am awake:) ai...wuts up with this guy..is been a while i never hear anything from him..wut a wonder..seems dat he totaly forget about me..Balik rumah ari tu, i hav figure it out from the msg he left to me (my yh msgr) what is actually goin on.. i don't know, is it jus a reason to get rid from this wierd situation or..nak sedapkan ati aku..He want us to be like usual.. i'm trying..but still..me hardly express the feeling well..prefer to keep it deep inside my heart and jus let it linger in my mind and dis is wut i always be.. somethin dat i figure it out in myself ( i'm now good at judging myself) and i was told it to my roomees "i'm the one who hard to expressing my feeling..espeacially when i supposed to mad / sakit hati to some one..quaite is the only way dat i can do". I know it isn't a good way.. i will suffer and ppl around can't do anything.. it doesn't worth. I jus able to talk to the other me .She is the one who can understand me a lot besides Allah S.W.T yang Maha Mengetahui.



I'm having Muet Paper tomorrrowfor reading+listening+writting paper.. dunno what is going to happen.weather i can do it or not..pray for me~

ergonomics+anthropometry=workstation??

Its a lovely morning..I feel like a big butterfly is in my stomac ~ I have a presentation on the litareture study for those ergonomic,anthropo... stuff. it's for my scnd minor project (design on a workstation for designer). Dunno wut its all about..try just to blaboring what we found in internet sources. urgh~ i felt my ears getting very hot. I'm too nervous. It's a usual symptoms.. i know that i had tu practice more and more to get use of it..when is it?it is how i am sejak zaman sekolah lagi..how am i going to be a profesional one day?.But what does really matter to me is my malu-tak-bertempat attitude.. i'm low in self-conviction..

The afternoon, syafa ask minta temankan die pegi cc Fz..tetibe terserempak anis+faezah.Dorang nak pegi IKEa dorang ajak kitorang...without thinking, we just say,"why not??"by wearing uia t-shirt+white tudung? skemalah pulak!!haha.. but kitorg still satisfied.Its a big place(kedua terbesar di rantau asia) ... very increbuble!!~ Tp, nak kuar from dat place..very hard..no taxi maa.

Fecky datang!! I'm quite shock! tetibe je muncul depan pintu...die dok pose gok ..hehe~ drive here all alone by herself!! berani btol akak nih ..having a long chit-chatting with her ...banyak la gak bende yg nak distorykan diksempatan yg ade.. bdak-bdak lain gih semyg terawih.she tell me about mr.F and mr.S ...and also mr.J ...tak sangke die knal rapat dgn mr.F...mber-mber aku sume admire kat bdak tuh..haha tp, aku tak ar..erm, abit changes i see on her...die dah makin berisi...haha..evrybody said so..die kate ..lagih tensi..lagi banyak die makan...sehat la nanti...

ape tip awk ar fecky?? nih nak kene blaja nih...ade petua??

Ramadhan penuh barakah...

today is 1 ramadhan...bulan yg mulia lagi barakah...bulan yg mulia...paling mulia...jgn kite pesiakan bulan nih dgn perkare yg bukan-bukan...kesempatan yg ade nih mestikah digunakan utk memperbanyakkan amaln kite..sume amalan kite berkali gande pahalenyer...kalau puase bukan main..tp solatnye kemane..ape gunenyer??? padahal due-due rukun islam..wajib ditunaikan..erm..

sleepyyyy..

i'm home....i'm so so sleepy...dr dlm komuter lg aku dah rase ngantuk gler, walaupon dgn hanye bediri pon aku bole nak telelap mate nih..dasat ar!! smlm aku tdo tak sampai sejam. 'Islamic Calendar' punye pasal..setiap kali project , bile esok je nak submit, forsure tak tdo mlm...bejage satu ari...ergh, tulah penangan wat keje betangguh..dunno when it gonna change...aku rase kat main camp takleh wat perangai cenggini..kat sane lg manyak subjeknyer..ini due , tige subjek da terok cm nih..eh, aku nih kate ngantuk..tapi still leh lyn internet bejam-jam..wajib kot =p td lyn tgok roswell+fruit basket yg dah siap dload....taoih tak larat ar..sampai tetido-tido..
erm, td upacare pengagihan cenderahati..hehe mmg kebiasan, kalo dah gi outstation jejauh..balik mesti ar bwk buah tgn,kan?? mama br balik all along from egypt last monday..aku tgok byk la gak mak aku menshoppingkan diri..mane taknyer 2 minggu lebey kat sane.. rugi kalo tak borong...mkn-mkn,buah-buah kering,jubah-jubah..haha aku, my sisters..three of us get jubah tdo,kinda fancy,,,red,green...brown.me??green of coz! my life meant to be greeny.. sempat lagi kitorg begambo..betige..sume pakai baju-baju tuh..lawak la jugak..nak abihkan filem.. mama tak ketinggalan..hehe, her school is the third place utk anugerah skolah quality..sort of.. dapat 10,000 tak pasal-pasal...apelagi..wat kenduri kesyukuran ar satu skolah..

proceed?! ke tak.. ^_^

Bangun pagi gak laa ari nih...nak g consult dgn mdm. erm...eddy kaco laaa..heh die bgun lagi awal dar aku laa..terpakse ar aku tunggu jap...erm, akhirnyer...idea aku yg simple nih...akhirnyer..proceed!! heh tapi...i have to change a bit laa...ikut cdgn mdm ar...byk lgi keje nih...

more to bankrupppp ~

yesterday, aku & da geng kua KL..sumthin to buy for the new project ..Cm is our destination..nak g paper gallery sebenarnyer...mak aih ...kertas kat situ memahal belake..aku paling byk borong..sampai rm18.20 aku kene!! ahaha dah ar tgh pokai nih..lagi nak memboros...aku pakai amik jer...pasal akunye design blum proceed lagi..mane tau nak pk decoration lagi...lantak ar!

pastuh ...kitorg ketemu gak dgn 'ulat'..mber ana...merangkap mber chat syafa(capot jual nom. ulat kat ana) ..uih..orgnye tinggi..sweet gtu...pemalu lak tuh...haha...mate kuyu!! cun ar :p

p:s/ aku pokai...bankrup...pokai...bankrup...wa.....

kemane ilangnye sereberumku..

around 9 a.m should prepare to go out, last nite ana warn me and shud earlier to get prepare, 9 a.m sharp! hehe muke nih slalu tak punctual..tgok-tgok die yg bangkit lambat..haha last-last kol 10 gak kuar..hampeh! straigth gi BSN cucuk duit...arap bole la survive dgn duit yg ade nih, nak tunggu scholarship lambat lagi..dr mulut-mulut org, aku dgr bdak AED mungkin dapat rm500!! melampau btol! apehal lak?!! nak gado ker! tak patut..tak cukup tau..itu duit mkn pon tak sure lepas..hish..tak paham btol ar..nak condem kitorg la tuh..uik..aku dah merapu byk nih..ha..kat bank tuh aku ikut ana wat kad bank baru ..BSN MATRIX..for me it's a brand new card laa...but actually, org lain dah lame dah renew kad tuh..ade visa elektron lagih! ahaha..makcik kauter tuh sebuk nyuruh aku..'dik..sign kena la same dgn dlm buku!!' ahah aku tercengang-cengang kat situ ape hal?? hehe mane taknyer..itu sign mase aku form bape..skrg nih dah betuka ler..aku pon..bantai ar..adelaa nampak same sket-sket..

it's been 1 week aku kat sini..dah seminggu gak aku bertungkus lumus memerah otak memikirkan idea utk prohect nih...but then, i'm still blur..kali nih project Islamic Calendar. Basically, made from paper-based material..a bit like origamy, but more to mass product. alaaa, nih mcm folded box..mesti folded..takleh main gam-gam kali nih..susah maa, pening otak aku..takpe-takpe, tadi aku cam dpt-dapat jer ilhamnyer..haha balik nih nak discover balik ..arap berjaye la kali ni, dah banyak idea ..tapi terbengkalai jer sbb tak reti nak buat..

i'm become .... @_@ ngengenge

Thank God..just finished my MUET speaking test!! yeah..this is a great feeling.. eventhough..i'm not satisfy with wut i'm doing in that room.. i woke up quite early.. doing some prayer(solat hajat)..all my heart hoping that..i can make well for the speaking..i don't get nervous..give me the strength...give some self-conviction to me..full with idea... get a comfort-to-communicate-with group... not the first candidate to be spoken first.. no men!...and easy question...so many thing in my mind that i'm keep asking from God..this what i feel, too nervous..everybody have the same filling though... dayah also, i think she more nervous than me..sampai die rase nak tarik diri..seb baik tak..die dpt same topic with me.. 'the Qualities of Good Malaysian'..laike usualy..the same situations happens to me..lack of idea... gagap..stuck!! don't want to think of it anymore..it keep me thinking dat i'm very worst...stupid one =(

It comes again... more projects?

want to know what? my result for the last sem..erm, a bit drop..about 0.2 sumthin compared to the result for sem 2 02/03..i can't remember exactly how many number written on the slip result (ooh..the slip result is'nt anymore like the slip result from the previous semester..now, its become like only a piece of photostat paper maa, what the heck!? tak sulit dah pon!) erm..the number is,3.5 sumthin laa haha drop ler..

today the first day of my studio class..nothin much different..only the number of the students increase..2 org jer..therefore, aku dah berpisah tmpt dgn liya =( hehe..die kot yg sedih...pasal bdak yg asalnye mmg dok situ time GC dah dok situ..aku dok sblh liya pon time ED jer..but, most my time doing project i spend with liya! takpelah liya..jarak dah memisah kan kite.. but then, we were given a new brief for the very first project..its minor project 1 ( Islamic calender) waa a bit tough than all the project that i've been through last semester.. It's the combination for ED and GC last sem..Get to work harder.. still no idea about this..tomorrow is the consultation day...

Che' Kiah come over to visit us here!! wut a surprise..*tear drops* hehe no laa..she gonna take MUET, tomorrow also..we all have a 'halaqah makan-makan' lame ar gaks..it takes 2 to 3 hours..very wasting the time..alaa baisaela tuh..lagi-lagi dgn kehadiran check kiah, diimport khas dari Gombak..mesti ar banyak bende nak tanye, banyak bende nak citer...hehe

p/s: i'm so nervous for MUET speaking test tomorrow..ila have been through it this morning.i think she is a bit conffidence of herself... i know she is better than me.. i can't stop thinking about it..it's keep linger in my head..Oh God, help me please..

sem 1 '03/'04

pepagi bute bgun..dlm kol 9 lebihh..hehe awal ker tu? patutnyer kene gih regiter hostel, oline...amik result ..tapih, dah tuka procedure.kene amik result dulu walo apepon! kalo nak oline regiteration subjek, dah ade machine counter ..ala yg mcm kat bank tuh...2234 kounter satu..haha..standard konon! ..so..kitorg pon gla AMF tuh...pegi-pegi..mak aih!! panjang benor line!! terpakse laa bebaris...uih..tak bergerak pon barisan nih..penat giler ar berdri..last-last tak dapat gak..ade patut kaunter close!!gler bengang..die suh mai balik kol 2 ptg...hehe tuh ar..igt bole laa check result kat cc..tuh dtg reramai nih..padahal..takde gak..tunggu dan lihat je laa ape result yg akn aku dpt..Ya Allah, May i get a flying colour results..*finger cross*

why is't?

I feel so down today..adeje rase tak kena..bad temepred also..tp, dlm aku moody, aku rase sume org susah nak perasan..bkn kebolehan aku laa nak tunjuk how am i feeling, i'm not good on that..but then, aku jd senyap, talking to myself..aku suke bemain dgn perasaan aku sendiri..and its make me become paranoid to the whole world, i'm just like to act that ways..i'ts what i am..
perasaan disisihkan slalu aku rase..since zmn kekanak lagi...mase kecik-kecik dulu..aku slalu rase yg aku nih being adopted..hehe wierd? no laa...mmg dr dulu lagi i like being paranoid..i dunno where the idea came..but it's only me who think that way..but the real fact is that they are meant to me.. I luv them very much!! kiddo thinking..knape ek? aku slalu rase..aku nih tak di gemari ramai..mcm depa tepakse je be surround me..i'm not easy to make fwen with..maybe, i'm not fwenly enough, i tried too..however i hate this but its another my paranoia thinking..maybe its becoz of me..my attitudes..i'm not so like ..nah..stop blaboring the nonsens..aku nih..no body is perfect..so am i..this is what i am..ish..ko kene la ubah attitude ko tuh siket..think positive!

p/s: i'm supposed to talk about other thin'..i'm really stuck now..no money ..what to do..no way to cucuk the money..the only way is..begging!! dad..=(

i'm stuck rite now

yesterday, i was updating for my next entry, but sadly all what i hav been typed at that moment, losted just like that.. hehe i'm not expert enough to handle about this stuff.Got to learn more..hehe..sooner or later i will get use of it.. nah..talking about today.. it become my laziest day. i woke up at 11 o'clock..without brushing my teeth + bath, paling koman pon..basuh le muke kan.. continue lay down in front of the t.v, watching what so ever in there..malas gler la nak bgun..cannot help laa..waited untill my sis came back from school..ntah kenape, kene jugak ngadap lap nih..heh oline jap.Suddenly, her fwens came to 'visit' us..urgh..igtkan ari jumaat tak datang..rerupenyer datang jugak...still wearing my pyjama! hehe ka'ya..bughoknyo peghanga kakok munih..tokmalu sungguh! wat dunno je la..just continue my work,surfing.. dorg kat kerusi blakang aku je.. just pretend like there is no one therelaa..a few minute later..nuha came.dan seketika itu jugaler, alia fwens pack dorg punye brg..dan mintak izin balik..uik?y? wut happen?takkan takut kot?? haha..segan agaknyer..she came alone by herself driving from kajang! 1st time katenyer..alaa itupon meornye ade teman separuh jln..cmner la bleh tetinggal ensetnye kt abgnye..?? =p pastuh kitorg g tesco! kali ni takde la memborong sgt..save sket..sbnrnye takut tak cukup duit..heh.Hm, feel free...seminggu tak kua umah! mau nak mati!hehe takde la nak mati...esok nak balik kajang dah..have to pack all the things..ahd da nak balik hostel..urgh..byk lg bende yg nak di buat tak terbuat-buat lagi..

Oh my, my atm card have been retained! wut to do?? actually, its an old card..the bank do not accept the old card anymore, maybe..thats whylaa..no more MEPS, it is BANKCARD from now on. but, mcm mane nak kua duit nih..haprak pon tarak dlm kocek nih..lotsa thing i need to buy..a new sandal! yg lame dah putus ar.. kad baru dah buat, tp tak tuka pin no. lagi...dan mane aku letak pin no tu ntah..aku tak igt. isk problemo btol laa..buku bank pon takde..ade patut aku tinggal kat hostel sumenyer..pandai btol ar aku nih.. its the end of my life..i have no money at all ..uwaa

Here i am...

Well..testing one..two ..three... ..never thought dat one day i will start writting my own blog!! but..hehe here i'm.... hope dat my effort in this..can be longlasting..hehe i donno why...selalunye... when startje oline.. i will start checking some other blog...sufing...chatting....and so on..but then today... whylaa...tetibe je timbul desire to start my very own blog.. hehe nih sume Lan punye pasal laa.. the person who brought a big influence in this stuff, blogging!! it start with m'belek-belek .. meneliti..dan akhirnye mengikuti some blogs and suddenly..its become my new hobby... that kinda..interesting! today is the second week i'm at melake.. terperap je kat umah....sepanjang 2 minggu nih...imagine urself...due minggu tak kua umah langsung!! bgun tdo..mkn... tdo..berangan2...mkn...tv...intenet..tdo...intenet...uih...bole mati tau!! tp...seb baik ade comp..takde la mati kebosanan...hm..its like a habit during the holiday... whyla... hidup aku nih a bit membosankan... balik-balik itu jugak yg aku wat tetiap ari..pi mai pi mai tang tu jugak :~ when its going to change... hey,its ur own effort whether to change it or not!! but..whenever i have the intention to make the day is better then bfore...its never gonna work..huh..'nates' byk kat keliling nih,thereforela awa oi..Ya Tuhanku, kau kuatkanla iman hambaMu ini...I think its quite enough for me as this is my 1rst entry... gambate neh awa... ^o^